not very easy

I guess I really didn't think it would be easy, but I didn't think school would be this hard! I have had to put aside just about everything in my life to go back to school, and I'm not sure that I'm doing very well. I would hate to bomb out! It would be very embarrassing, to say the least.

Then, I think, if I can't make it in nursing school, who can? I'm smart. I work hard. I have tons of experience. Why is it so hard?

The answers are many. I have more distractions than kids just out of high school. I don't have a mom at home shopping for me, making me dinner, cleaning up, or paying the bills. This sucks! I DO have kids that need me for homework help (not to mention dinner). I have other life obligations. And bills.

So, I don't talk to many people on the phone anymore. I did get to talk to a friend in Florida this weekend. That was great. Just trying to catch up, connect. But other than that, I've not had much time to do anything but study, read, study, sleep (and not much of that!)

Why is it so hard? I've not had to do full time student work in forever. One of my babies is turning 18 this week. That's a life thing that need my attention. But they do grow up fast, don't they? Full time mom and full time student. Hard to do.

And this week both schools of the younger kids have Back to School nights. I guess I need to go, but I might have to skip the Tuesday one because I have a quiz on Wednesday that I need to take, and thus need to study for.

Who knew there was so much to know? And if I learn it now, will I remember it? Or at least remember it long enough to pass the NCLEX (nursing license test). How do people do this? I'm just wondering how I can ever make it through to the end of the semester, much less to the end of the year. Can we skip Christmas this year? I'd like to!

And I miss my births. I want to get one in now or then. Maybe Columbus Day? Thanksgiving? New Years? Argh!

Oh well, if you think of me, pray! I need strength, both mental and physical. Working in the hospital wasn't so bad. Guess you can get used to just about anything. Not that I'd love a job in a hospital, but if I have to, I can do it. Hopefully I won't have to and hubby will get another job soon.