Thursday

Everyday is like a whirlwind of activity. I am beginning to lose track of what day it is, and when the days and nights end and start. I realize that sometimes it is dark outside and sometimes it is light. That used to mean day and night and that used to have some connection to being tired or time to sleep. But now I am always tired and I would like to sleep all the time, but never seem to have time for sleep. And when I am in bed, like last night, I can't seem to find sleep.

I remembered just now that we took a quiz in class on Wednesday, and I could go and check my grade. It was a 10 question critical thinking quiz, which means that it wasn't just study and memorize, but be able to distinguish between many right answers to find the best. I missed one that I should not have missed, but I answered too quickly, and I must have missed another that I am unaware of. We went over the quiz right after we completed them, and I knew the one I missed, but my grade says that I missed two questions, which was a surprise to me. I wonder how I missed one that I thought I answered correctly? Was is just a shading error (we use Scantrons) or was there something I transferred the answer from the text paper to the Scantron incorrectly, or did I really miss the content? I don't know and I can't change it, so I better just let it go.

80% is passing, but it seems a lot worse than missing two questions. I'm bummed!

Okay, I will let it go.

I have no clue what my classes are for tomorrow or if I am ready for class. I'm hoping I can get up early enough to get to class on time. I want to help my kids out of the house first thing and the I'm off. I canceled worship team rehearsal tonight because I was crazy enough to try to get to a birth. But the mother wasn't in hard labor and I left about an hour or so after I got there. What a waste of 2+ hours. Except I got to talk to L on the cell phone which was so WONDERFUL after talking with nursing students only for the past two weeks. (Hey L!) I can't explain how great it was to see and talk to someone from my old life.... The one where I knew what I was doing and who I was and I had a roll and a place and I wasn't always tired.

Ok, maybe I was tired a lot then, but not nearly as much as now!

With that, I'm to bed.